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so this is my dearest little boyfriend who just passed his birthday on April 7th! <:o)

wuii asik deh yang udah 24 tauuun. yg bentar lagi kerja. yg bentar lg bisa beli apa-apa pake hepeng sendiri. haha. ahnywahys makasih yah bikaus you always be the place where i go to if i have problems. cieh. i was really thankful to God loh that He never stop giving you a good life, health, good friends, much blessings(!), and so pasti pacar yang lucu imut cantique wutcuk tiada tara sepertiku. jgn lupa bilang makasih yah sm Tuhan Yesus :D

oya pesenku jangan makin ganteng ya kalo bisa, nanti hidupku tak tenang merindukanmu setiap malam. semoga pacar kedua kamu si liperfool eh looserfool eh liverpool (aduh susah ngetiknya) besok2 bisa menang yaaa ('menang' nya pake size 72, di bold, jgn lupa di underline). en keep survive ya untuk pacar ketiga kamu si dua huruf, smoga you can make it alive in the next coming 2 months terus bs sidang! :D dan smoga mantan serta secret admirer kamu di ampuni dosa-dosanya krn sudah merindukanmu setiap malam di saat kau sudah menjadi milikku. (cieeh posesif). oya, terimakasih jg buat 365 hari terakhir ini! :) cieh yang bisa survive sampe setahun cie. makasih ya udah bikin aku ketawa ngakak, ketawa garing, ketawa straight face, sampe ketawa lemes. aku udah kenyang menikmati kelucuan dan kejayusan kamu. ternyata kamu ga sia2 syg hadir di setiap hari-hariku wkwkwk

aku mengasihimu, yosua lesmana :)

best wishes and good future is waiting for you.

FIGHT! :)

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I'm Keeping You Because...

(wrote these on wednesday, august 03, 2011. just realized it's on my draft. :p)

1. you let me into your life.
2. nothing calms me down faster when you run your fingers through my hair and rub my head.
3. you're the only one who has seen my scars, accepted them, and have prevented me from making new ones.
4. eventhough we're total opposties, we attract like a paperclip to a magnet.
5. i can be entirely myself with you. somedays, it feels like i've know you forever, and somedays, it feels like im just starting to get to know you.
6. you always say the best things to keep me going.
7. you're helping me be more mature about our relationship.
8. you make me feel safe.
9. you know all my mistakes from the past, yet you still want to be in my life.
10. you aren't scared away by my past.
11. you have patience.
12. you show me everyday that im not just a waste of space.
13. you dont care what anyone else thinks about us.
14. we're us, and we're happy.

***

that day, i know it's all about "i am keeping you because ____"

but today, there's more like "even _____ , i'm still keeping you."

i don't know why i won't move,
even there's a giant in front of us.

how cute she is :}

Skinny Love

why o why

feelings are hard to grasp

because they are sand

running through your hand

they are more like poetry

or like a dream.

imaginary.

you put your hands on my heart

and squeezed it to see it bleed

i said, "enough is enough"

and pretended to stop hurting,

i pretended to laugh,

a protective lie,

like laughter comes lightly

for someone like me

you did let go

and think i cried

with words still screaming

internally bleeding in my mind

..and,
you were just watching?